I'm a mommy blogger wannabe.I want into that club. But no matter how badly I might want to, I cannot join that club because I am missing one key ingredient: a child. I want children. I want to hear the pitter-patter of little feet down wooden hallways. I want to read my kids stories, to see their first steps, hear their first words, and meet their first friends, favorites, and loves.
But since I cannot have children or even a house just yet, I have to soothe the beast that is my biological imperative by any means I can. So I embarked upon a project to take our tiny little shoebox apartment and upgrade everything I could to make it a home. (To see the results, you can go to my blogpost on it here.)
So this is me. Laying bare my heart's desire and my modest attempts to seek it.
This is my hand, painting my dream, that I may call it a home.
These are my feet, bearing me upon the precipe, that I might reach for the sky.
This is my face wishing, and my heart thrumming, that I might satiate the beast within...
... just one day more.
“I must obey the inscrutable exhortations of my soul.” - Calvin & HobbesFor more self-portraits, check out Beth's website: I Should Be Folding Laundry and this week's You Capture challenge!
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I can't wait to have my own baby blog. At least you're married, that's a step in the right direction.
ReplyDeleteBut then, alas...he is 2 years younger than me and his biological clock places no such demands on him. {grumble, grumble}
ReplyDeleteThe last picture made me laugh so hard.
ReplyDeleteHeh. Cool. I figure there's no sense in taking oneself too seriously. ;)
ReplyDeleteGreat shots of you...
ReplyDeleteOne day you'll "join the ranks" and you'll love it!
Nell
Aww, this is a sweet post. Great shots too!
ReplyDeleteGreat captures. You'll get to join the club one of these days and it's a great club!
ReplyDeleteAmazing words and photos. Wow. I'm blown away.
ReplyDeleteI'm not a mommy blogger either, but I love this community so much!! I borrow my nephew for kiddie posts sometimes! ;o)
ReplyDeleteGreat captures!
I'm a wannabe too, and I even have a kid. I want to hang with the cool kids!
ReplyDeleteYou're adorable! Great post and photos.
Great shots of you! Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeletefantastic post - I LOVED this!
ReplyDeleteI got a few extra kids- you wanna borrow one? I love your post and all the different aspects/views of you. Good luck on convincing the hubby that the time is now.....
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with ya. I'm getting married in....2 months...eeek! And I can't wait to set up "house". My fiance has already moved in and keep telling him things like "no no you can't put that there cause I'm gonna put this there..." he just shakes his head....luckily he is four years older so he's ready to have kids! yeay!
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful post...and you ended it with a quote from my ultimate favorite of all time comic strip. I'll be back!
ReplyDeleteAwww...you ladies are making me all teary-eyed. :} I'm honored.
ReplyDeleteRayne, congrats on your upcoming nuptials! I do hope you'll post pics of the wedding so we all can see!
This is so beautiful. My husband and I had the it's time for kids argument for quite a while. I finally whined and begged long enough that he caved. In due time it'll happen. :) Then you'll be longing for these days..the days of peace, quiet & sleep.
ReplyDeleteWow, this was really beautiful and raw. You are brave and I also love your pictures.
ReplyDeleteI absoulutely loved this post...Love your pictures...everthing..Xx
ReplyDeleteGreat post this week!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great post! Your self portraits are so creative!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful post and great pictures! Good job!!
ReplyDeleteYou are ADORABLE.
ReplyDeleteAnd great post!
um, I love this post....and I hope that all your dreams come true! I am sure IN TIME, they will!
ReplyDeleteadorable is right!
ReplyDeletebeautiful pictures and thoughts!! it is definitely worth the wait!
ReplyDeleteGreat captures! Very cute, honest post. I like it!
ReplyDeleteGreat photos, great thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYou will get there. And you will be an adorable mommy with a beautiful baby. Or if not? You can still be a mommy blogger. I'll let you come play with the "in" crowd. :D
When you do join the club, you'll be great at it because you write and photograph beautifully.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful surprise to come here and find all these lovely comments! Thank you all so much. You've made my day!
ReplyDeleteI love your pictures! And you are so sweet.. I might have to become a regular reader! I totally know what you mean about wanting in on the mommy blogs, btw. : )
ReplyDeleteWhat a GREAT post!! I love the sweet honesty! And your shots are marvelous!!
ReplyDeleteWOW...so poetic the pictures and words...beautiful.
ReplyDeletelove these pictures and your words. i remember being there...i wanted to be a mom. so.much.
ReplyDeletei don't think i wished away the time, nor do i want to go back. but, i do wish that i cherished our family of 2 more. cherish this time...you're building the very important foundation of that family! =)
Neat post. Neat memory. I think you will so much appreciate the drive of your heart when you are able to fulfill it - having reflected upon it and having tried to satiate it in the way you can now.
ReplyDeleteCathy
Yes we are very much enjoying being just married. It's nice to have that alone time and space together, enjoying each other - plus the freedom to just pick up willy-nilly and go to foreign countries, or just out to the movies and not have to worry about hiring a baby sitter.
ReplyDeleteBut the biological clock is demanding and noisy, isn't it? In the meantime, I tell myself one thing I don't look forward to is all that extra laundry I'll have to do. ;)
Loved your picture, they were pretty cool!
ReplyDeleteand you are so sweet! =)